维的杂诗三首写极了他的细腻和敏感，淡然决然又缠绵悱恻，寄托在初春寒梅之间的离愁与思念，凝结在凝视春草的目光里。

其一：

家住孟津河
门对孟津口
常有江南船
寄书家中否

其二：

君自故乡来
应知故乡事
来日绮窗前
寒梅著花未

其三：

已见寒梅发
复闻啼鸟声
心心视春草
畏向阶前生

杂诗是南朝乐府遗风，写的是离情愁别，主题并不新鲜，大抵也并非王维当时的境遇，但只言片语之间，尽显他绵长而克制的柔情。开头写家妇，独守空房，遥想南方，游走的南方船只划开她心中的涟漪，你是否带来了夫君消息？南方的男子却很忍情，偶遇故乡的朋友，不道家事，单问梅花，这里已经暖和了，家里的梅花也快要开了吧。故乡的爱人呀，躲在浅浅的窗棂后面，在这乍暖还寒的时节，默看梅花初发，但闻春鸟初鸣，心中不忍春季的到来，独自品味这等待的滋味。“心心看春草”，多么清透的心思啊，就仿佛知道自己从来都不是一个人，哪怕那个人和你远在千里，没有半丝音信，你也知道他就在那里，有他自己的顾盼和思虑，你能做的，只有拾起你的心，耐心等待罢了。一边是等不尽的柔情，一边是忍情中的淡淡真情，但在这一问一答中流露出的默契不言而喻。欲言又止的心绪，愁心浸透而悟出的淡然，诗末所有的心酸泪流皆是枉然，生活的苦涩中总会略有丝丝甜美，哀伤尽了之后才能期待下次的重逢。

日与莲蓬念诗，忽然读到这首迪金森的幽闺之作，其中的美丽俏皮不言而喻，遂将往日找到的翻译加以润色，权作这冬日的诙谐小品。

By Emily Dickinson

If you were coming in the fall,
I'd brush the summer by,
With half a smile and half a spurn,
As housewives do a fly.

If I could see you in a year,
I'd wind the months in balls,
And put them each in separate drawers,
Until their time befalls.

If only centuries delayed,
I'd count them on my hand,
Subtracting till my fingers dropped
Into Van Diemen's land.

If certain, when this life was out,
That yours and mine should be,
I'd toss it yonder like a rind,
And taste eternity.

But now, all ignorant of the length
Of time's uncertain wing,
It goads me, like the goblin bee,
That will not state its sting.

如果你秋天要来,
我会像温柔的主妇待苍蝇那般，
以浅浅的笑容和微微的排拒,
轻轻将夏日掸开。

若是你一年之后才来,
我就将每个月份都揉成球，
放在不同的抽屉里，
让它们一一点过。

假如仅仅是要耽搁数个世纪,
我便把他们放在掌心细数,
变少, 变少, 直到手指都垂下,
落在蛮夷之地。

倘若我们注定在生命之后相遇，
我会挥掷生命同果皮，
以品尝永恒的甜蜜。

但现在一切都属于未知，
这之间等待的困扰，
如一只伺机的蜜蜂，
迟迟不肯刺痛我。

拿起一个铜板，想象它代表你正执著的东西。握紧拳头抓住它，伸出手臂，掌心向下，现在如果打开或放松手掌，你将失去你抓紧的东西。那就是你要握住它的原因。

你也可以放开手掌，但仍保有它。你的手臂仍然往外伸展，只要把你的掌心向上，即使打开你的手掌，铜板还是留在你手中。你放下手臂，而铜板仍然是你的，甚至连铜板四周的虚空也都是你的。

我们时刻都要快乐，但追求快乐的方式却那么笨拙，以至于带来更多的忧愁。

想象我们是天空，看着乌云飘过；想象我们像水银一般自由自在。当水银落在地面时，仍然完整无暇，从不与尘埃混合。把喜悦绑缚在自己身上的人，
反而毁灭了长着翅膀的生命；
当喜悦飞去而吻别的人，
将活在永恒的朝阳之中。”

——索甲仁波切《西东篱把酒黄昏后藏生死书》

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未删减的摘抄原文是说人可以放弃执着的念想，从而获得心灵的自由。倘若心中无牵无挂，生活自然也就了无羁绊。不图功名利禄，自然不会为素衣粗粮、默默无闻而苦恼；不追求生活之中华丽的冒险，便也不必为日常的琐碎与平淡而郁郁寡欢；从无欲无求之中获取灵魂的纯净，淡泊人生，得以潇洒地走过，看风清云淡，品人间真性情。

但我不认为执着是一种需要克服的品质。执着让我懂得珍惜。生命中若不曾期冀获得他人的认可，又怎么学会予人以甘露？生命中若不充满对爱的渴望，又怎会懂得给予人之所求，成他人之美？生命中若不曾亡命奔跑，又怎么体会到宁静致远的可贵？生命中若不洋溢着梦想的光芒又怎能感受到自由的明亮？我也不认为执着会阻碍人生的幸福。执着与自由并非两种互不相容的状态，若能执着于内心所向，岂不是人生最大的快乐与自在？

人的执念在于求之不得，得之则废，于是只剩下得不到的东西才是最好最想要。人的最大执念在于期待每一颗播下的种子都会发芽，开花，认定没有开出的花朵总是最灿烂的，没有发生的事情总是最让人怀念的。这些，让所有的当下都黯然失色。

活在当下，活在你的执着与淡泊里，执着于心之所向，不计较你将有多少收获，因为，光是那漫天的秋色就足够让人幸福的了，不是吗？

) about plot and fiction

What does the plot do in the film? (as if the plot is already known though the characters in the film never spell it out)

What do you expect to happen, but not really happened?

(you don't really see the development of event, but the making of his world. The unfulfilled drama:the film creates drama by not creating drama.)

A fiction is the dream of the character. (in a way that he wishes something to happen but it never comes, thus the film probes into his exhaustion of life.)

*When we analyze the characters, never try to speak for him and try to keep a theoratical restraint. We don't speak of the "emptiness" of his life, but the exhaustion. He is with such pride.

"tasteless as carrot" a great line about the protagonist's life in that tasteless is used plainly about savor rather than etiqutte and decorum. The line itself conveys a sense of exhaustion that takes away the flavor and color of Stan's life.

Use one word to describe Stan's facial expresion when he sees the engine falling down. How the camera thries to express this emotion?

2) fiction and documentary

Scene: Stan goes to buy an engine for the car and labors to get it down stairs into their truck, but unfortunately, as they he drives away, the engine falls onto the ground and he leaves it there.

Is it a fictinal moment, or documentary moment? (when the engine falls off)

The deliberate showing of labor sets the "fiction" of the scnene, yet the fiction enriches the fact of a community that a documentary would not convey. The fiction gets us into the emotion "cinema verite" will not.

What is documentary and what are the documentary moments in this film? (sheep, domestic scenes, children playing)

Sheep- is it a symbol? (a symbol is the frozen, congealed, dead meaning) The images resmembles that in a ducumentary...

3) quotations:

Life Drawings: Charles Burnett's Realism"

-when the war in Asia start to blossom, and the draft wiped out my whole neighbourhood.

-For Stan, everyday is a crisis.

-Killer of Sheep is supposed to look like a documentary.

Skoller "Killer of Sheep"

-“The story in Killer of Sheep is episodic and fragmentary, constructed through a series of loosely knit sequences depicting the daily life of this working-class African American family, each separate scene a self-contained narrative with its own formal logic.” (from Skoller essay)

了老师竟然还是会讨厌考试。期中将近，格外忙碌，种种不顺利都汇聚到了一齐。

但是......

Diane Arbus 给一个摄影项目写申请的时候用了这么一句话来形容自己的主题: that will have been beautiful (那将成为曾经美丽过的)。她的镜头里有巨人，小矮人，有异装癖，有天体主义者，她搜集这些瞬间仿佛老外婆制作腌制的浆果，等着现在的不堪变成未来某一天回首的美好。时间的力量正在于此。

现在的不堪将变成未来某一天回首的美好。
也许有一天你真的会说，二十三岁的我，很怀念。